I don't think you were really doing that. I know... After what we've all been through, I think it's normal to have a bunch of different opinions about it.
I think... It's really big of you to keep their perspective in mind, then, considering what you went through. Even if you don't forgive them. And especially if they weren't possessed... It's got to sting more knowing they chose you willingly.
[he doesn't want to shy away from answering honestly, but he does take a moment to decide the best way to explain]
Every week, we only had the option to choose between three people, not everyone in the round. It was me and two other people making that choice. Out of the options we had, one was my friend, and another was a friend of someone else making the choice. [...] I know that's really cruel.
[ It's... a complicated feeling. As someone who has been consciously targeted. Because he hates that someone would be picked just for not knowing the right people but.
It's not Rupert's fault. How could anyone ask him to kill someone he cared for? ]
... There's really no decision that isn't cruel, I think.
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[it's a kind thing to say, so the thanks isn't insincere, but he does pause for a moment.]
Not sure I'm the person to be sorry for in that scenario, though.
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[ He's suddenly frowning. ]
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Being forced into a position to kill people that you don't want to. That's still something worth sympathizing with.
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...Thanks. I do appreciate the sentiment, sincerely.
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I shouldn't talk over your feelings.
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But I get it's not something he wanted either.
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...I didn't know you didn't make it to the end of your last round. I'm sorry.
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[ He shakes his head. ]
And they were like yours. People did it without getting possessed by anything.
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Was... there a reason you picked that guy?
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[he doesn't want to shy away from answering honestly, but he does take a moment to decide the best way to explain]
Every week, we only had the option to choose between three people, not everyone in the round. It was me and two other people making that choice. Out of the options we had, one was my friend, and another was a friend of someone else making the choice. [...] I know that's really cruel.
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[ It's... a complicated feeling. As someone who has been consciously targeted. Because he hates that someone would be picked just for not knowing the right people but.
It's not Rupert's fault. How could anyone ask him to kill someone he cared for? ]
... There's really no decision that isn't cruel, I think.
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I guess that's true, yeah.