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[agleam]

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[agleam]

[nope nope nope nope nope nope]

Ha. Fair enough.

[bxkautx]

And I do like roadtrips in the car.

[agleam]

Did you travel a lot, before - everything?

[bxkautx]

No, not really. A little, I guess, but not that much. I wanted to get out of my hometown for a while, but kind of... changed my mind?

[agleam]

Do you remember why you changed your mind?

[bxkautx]

I just stopped hating being home so much.

[agleam]

... Sorry you hated it at all. That sounds rough.

[bxkautx]

... It's fine. It was just like—when something bad happens but nothing changes and no one handles it right, so you just want to leave.

[agleam]

It's okay if you don't want to answer, but... What was the bad thing?

[bxkautx]

My brother died.

[agleam]

[a beat of surprise, then - how terrible. i can't even imagine.]

Oh - I'm so sorry. Truly.

[bxkautx]

It was a long time ago.

[agleam]

Yeah.

[but sometimes things linger.]

[bxkautx]

... Not as long as you'd hope. [ stop responding to thoughts. ]

[agleam]

Why would I hope that?

[bxkautx]

Wouldn't you want to hold on forever?

[agleam]

Depends on what part I'm holding onto, I guess.

[bxkautx]

The pain.

[agleam]

Well... I'd like to think there'd be more positive things to hold onto if I lost someone, too. Not just the pain.

[bxkautx]

[ just seems. confused by this notion. ] The rest is gone.

[agleam]

What do you mean?

[bxkautx]

Um... I don't really know how to explain...?

[agleam]

Well... Okay. We can talk about something else if you want to.

[bxkautx]

Oh. Uhh, yeah. Sure?

[agleam]

Oh - I mean, we don't have to, it just kind of seemed like you wanted to.