...I wish someone was angrier. [ it's hard to express why. but it feels wrong, to be met with so much understanding every time this happens. at the same time, ] Though I—...I'm grateful that you aren't.
[ because they're friends. he looks at him a little helplessly. ]
...I think it does. When people are so calm about it, it's kind of like it's a disservice to the people who're gone, right?
[pausing for a moment, trying to find the right way to explain this.]
I am pretty angry, for the record. I'm angry we're all in this situation again, I'm angry people have died, I'm angry people are hurt... None of this should be happening. Neither of them should be gone. [regardless of his mixed feelings on ryo.] But that doesn't make it your fault, you know? So it's not you I'm angry at.
I guess I just think... Especially in places like this, a lot of people do bad things for good reasons. I'm not happy about it, but I think we're all - or, well, most of us are just doing our best. You're included in that.
[ he nods once—that is basically it. it delves into something complicated—being on a team that gets away with murder, literally, and not for the first time—but the gist of it is that it's all very unfair. to people who he and rin have hurt, to everyone who votes, to the people who've been scapegoated for them.
but in the end, it does boil down to this: surviving a bad situation as best they can. ]
...I know it's making the best of the worst.
[ he sighs, long and soft. it does not match his anger, but he's not very outwardly emotive. ]
But I'm angry too. [ ... ] You're a good person, Rupert. That's important. Just remembering we don't have to be so terrible to each other, even in a place like this... [ it's so crucial. ]
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...You don't have to fix it.
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Well - sure, I guess I don't have to. But it seems like it was important to you...?
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Rupert. I mean—you're nice. But you don't have to be.
[ it feels a little crazy, after rupert had to track him down in trial like that. ]
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How would you rather I act?
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...I wish someone was angrier. [ it's hard to express why. but it feels wrong, to be met with so much understanding every time this happens. at the same time, ] Though I—...I'm grateful that you aren't.
[ because they're friends. he looks at him a little helplessly. ]
Does that make any sense?
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[pausing for a moment, trying to find the right way to explain this.]
I am pretty angry, for the record. I'm angry we're all in this situation again, I'm angry people have died, I'm angry people are hurt... None of this should be happening. Neither of them should be gone. [regardless of his mixed feelings on ryo.] But that doesn't make it your fault, you know? So it's not you I'm angry at.
I guess I just think... Especially in places like this, a lot of people do bad things for good reasons. I'm not happy about it, but I think we're all - or, well, most of us are just doing our best. You're included in that.
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but in the end, it does boil down to this: surviving a bad situation as best they can. ]
...I know it's making the best of the worst.
[ he sighs, long and soft. it does not match his anger, but he's not very outwardly emotive. ]
But I'm angry too. [ ... ] You're a good person, Rupert. That's important. Just remembering we don't have to be so terrible to each other, even in a place like this... [ it's so crucial. ]