[he hesitates for a long moment before he moves to sit down, and - nearly misses the chair, catching himself on the table before he can fall with a wince. et tu depth perception
anyways, as he balances:]
...How's your hand? And your - you know, everything else. Someone healed you, right?
Being angry at you isn't going to solve anything. [ he shakes his head ] That's what they want.
[ he glances down at his finger a moment and chuckles. ] Saves Diluc the trouble anyways.
[ looking up. ] We have to focus on the present, you know? We have people waiting for us. But... I don't want you to linger over this feeling either. I'm not going to hold it against you. [ kaeya's mouth briefly hangs open like he wants to say something else but he shakes his head. ]
[ shakes him but with his mind. smh. as he said—former princes. ]
No, I'm not... But he was part of ours as well. From what Clementine has told me, there are others who she remembers, but they don't remember her, having gone to another session entirely.
[ he smiles a little fondly. ]
It was always about the Third Path with him... he wanted to save everyone.
It's... unsettling to think what would happen if they met.
[ the mgrpu explodes. ]
It means that there's always another way. That when you're presented with a situation when your choices are grim... that there's another way. Somehow.
[ he does chuckles a little bit though: ] Of course... it certainly got us in quite a lot of trouble, but... I would change anything about the things I experienced with him.
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anyways, as he balances:]
...How's your hand? And your - you know, everything else. Someone healed you, right?
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he lifts up the hand and there is a little ♥ at the base of his knuckle. ]
It'll be a fun story... but yes. Aquila. Everything else will heal, just have to be gentle with it. It's stopped actively bleeding at least...
[ he frowns a bit as he lifts up his cup, looks at rupert over it. ] How is your eye?
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[that's said quickly, because it feels pretty important for him to move on to:]
But, just - I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. I know saying that doesn't change anything, but still.
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It doesn't.
[ because it doesn't. it doesn't change or fix anything. doesn't mend it up. he closes his eye and tries to choose his words carefully. ]
But this place will always try to turn us against each other. That's the fun part. Whatever... entertains the Host per the contract.
[ he squeezes his cup ]
Don't beat yourself up over it, alright...?
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I know, but - if you're angry, I understand. You can be. That's all.
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[ he glances down at his finger a moment and chuckles. ] Saves Diluc the trouble anyways.
[ looking up. ] We have to focus on the present, you know? We have people waiting for us. But... I don't want you to linger over this feeling either. I'm not going to hold it against you. [ kaeya's mouth briefly hangs open like he wants to say something else but he shakes his head. ]
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[he's about to continue on, but he sees that motion at the end, and he'd rather know exactly what he wanted to say before he continues.]
What is it?
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[ he shrugs ]
I've already betrayed the people I've loved before. I didn't think I'd be doing it again to people I... was growing a little fond of.
I hate this place.
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This wasn't your fault. You know that, right?
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So long as you realize that it wasn't yours either. We were set up for this.
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Yeah, I know.
[logically, at least.]
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Former princes... I swear...
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Xie Lian is... one of my greatest friends.
Your hearts are just... so hard on yourselves.
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[even if you yourself are the one doing it! but he pauses for a moment, looking confused.]
Wait - I thought Xie Lian was from Clem's group? You guys aren't from the same place.
[xl's double mg life...]
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No, I'm not... But he was part of ours as well. From what Clementine has told me, there are others who she remembers, but they don't remember her, having gone to another session entirely.
[ he smiles a little fondly. ]
It was always about the Third Path with him... he wanted to save everyone.
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[and more than a little disconcerting, but he moves on quickly.]
The third path... Can I ask what he meant by that?
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[ the mgrpu explodes. ]
It means that there's always another way. That when you're presented with a situation when your choices are grim... that there's another way. Somehow.
[ he does chuckles a little bit though: ] Of course... it certainly got us in quite a lot of trouble, but... I would change anything about the things I experienced with him.
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[the thought of both dimitris meeting each other is Interesting. anyways.]
Mm... Did he manage to always find that way, back where you two were? Even he didn't - it's always a good goal.
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Sometimes, of course, it was literally. He punched a hole in a rock wall with just his fist at one point...
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[his eye widens]
Jeez! Was he okay?
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We were all pretty burnt already... I don't think it mattered to him. Didn't really matter to any of us at that point it was... a lot.
Regardless, it's good to know others have had the privilege of meeting him.